writing fearlessly

When will my writing be recognized?

I consider myself a fearless writer wannabe. I jot down my thoughts and publish them wherever and whenever I can. My work has been published once in one of the Philippine’s leading newspaper, my (somewhat boring) articles in college were published as well. I also have my own blogs that continue to go dismally unnoticed. These are not brag-worthy, but they are sufficient enough to stroke my ego. Writing is like my second nature. It may even be my first, but I might not be well-aware of it yet.

I know I am not the best in the lot, but I know I can offer something. I have my own voice that I get from my own experiences. I want to continue writing for as long as I can. It’s highly improbable for me to get rich with my writing attempts, but it gives me a certain rush. It’s probably the same rush as singers get when they receive standing ovation for their performances.

Knowing that I have an audience, makes me feel good no matter how unpleasant the things they may say or comment on my writing attempts. Writing is my refuge, my escape, my bliss…

It’s obvious what made me say that I write fearlessly. I say and write what I want and always ready myself for whatever people have to say about it. How many, out of the billions of people in the world; in the Philippines alone, can write down their ideas and opinions and give people a ready access to it? That is being fearless of criticism of the judging public.

Someday, I will have a louder voice. When that day comes, I hope you’ll listen to what THAT voice have to say.

month of splurging

I have spent so much this month; mostly unplanned spendings. My money have litterally been flushed down the drain... into the pockets of my relatives, inaanaks (goddaughter, godson) and unknown (at least to me...) owners of Starbucks all over metro manila. My experience this Christmas season have taught me a lot of things.

Number one, the art of letting go. Money spent, is not really money lost. It's just money that went elsewhere in exchange for something. In exchange of coffee, a hug, a smile, or a heartfelt thank you. My bank book may read P0.0 [read: zero peso and zero centavo] but at least, the money didn't go to waste [and waste being...?!].

Number two, the art of holding on. Contradictory to the first lesson, but hear me out. Holding on to people. This season gave me time to see old friends and meet new ones. I have re-realized (once again realized) how lucky I am to have a lot of people to run to whenever there's a little running needed.

Number three, money makes a difference. Christmas is somehow different now that I am earning. I am the one giving now, but I still am receiving. It is true that it is better to give than to receive.

Number four, hold your breath. People may not always appreciate your gifts or surprises for them. Their reactions (watch out the facial expressions!) might be hurtful, so always brace yourself. Just charge it to experience.

Number five, going out has never been this fun! The thought that there's no work the next day... man... I'm loving it so much! All work and no play indeed makes Jill dumb; I mean dull.

Other lessons are better left unsaid, or unwritten.

An old quote from a friend: "There are friends you talk and laugh with everyday, yet the friendship ends there and there are those whom you rarely talk to and much rarely see, yet you know that they are ones worth keeping."

Wow!

December. A lot happened and will happen. Family reunion... get together with friends... weekend getaways... and the high light: ME cleaning my room. [see the preview of my new and improved room on the left] I also got a month-old-late surprise birthday dinner from my former co-volunteers/friends in college. I was 10 hours late for our family reunion though. Thank heavens my relatives are forgiving... maybe the excess cake from the dinner with friends + bouquet of flowers helped appease them. Ohwell.. it's probably the spirit of Christmas and simbang gabi. I also have this insatiable desire to get the Starbucks 2007 planner. Thus causing so much grumbling in the stomach and frequent trips to the washroom... Anyways, it's been a great year! 2006 has not ended yet, but I am sure excited to welcome 2007 with a huge grin on my face. Everyday's a great day...

I'm extra happy coz I now have a "private" blog. THIS. It's private in a sense that none of my friends know this one yet.