new?

In order for you to do things differently, you need to see things differently.

I am sick and tired of being told what to do. I know I have to be patient and understanding and I must learn to compromise. Right now though, I don't want to give a sh*t. I want to scream, I want to be heard and be understood.

My Bucket List

1. backpack trip from South to North (Mindanao to Luzon)

2. backpack trip around Asia (Vietnam, Laos, Cambodia, Thailand)

3. sky dive

4. see pandas

5. see koalas

6. know what it's like to live in New Zealand and LIVE THERE.

7. be rich

8. take photos in Paco Park

9. write a book

10. own a house

11. learn to drive (errrr....)

12. *bleep*

13. have a garden

14. plant vegetables

15. kiss under the rain

16. watch the sun set on my dying moment

17. go to Davao with Winston

18. go out of the house beautiful, all the time

19.

to be continued...

Lesson

Lately, all I do is obsess about my boyfriend. I am serious getting sick of it. I know I have to snap out of it and occupy myself with things that will keep my mind off of him. I have to do it for my own good. I guess this is one of the many challenges of being away from each other. *sigh* There is a lesson behind this for sure....

Helping Out

This afternoon I had a cooking spree. I started with turon (deep friend banana) which is a Filipino dessert. I made it as snacks. Then for dinner I prepared squash with malunggay matched with fried boneless bangus (milkfish). I enjoyed cooking as much as eating what I have prepare. I honestly am proud of myself. I did not only find something to occupy myself with but I also helped out fellow Filipino buy buying from the talipapa (small market) just outside of our subdivision. The vendor where I bought pineapple even shared how very little they actually get from what they sell but looking at the good side, you cannot get whatever amount they're getting by just sitting in their houses waiting for grace and money to fall on their laps. I wish I have taken photos of what I prepared. Tomorrow, I am planning to prepare pasta of some sort. I was also hoping I can bbq something. Hmmm.... I'll worry about that tomorrow. Tonight, I know I will fall asleep with a smile on my face knowing I did well today.

Setting New Goals

I achieved so many dreams and I am now ready to dream new dreams. I am ready to let go of who I was and I cannot wait to be who I am.

I got my wish to work in a cruise ship and see the world (or at least some parts of the world). The world is so awesome and I have come to accept that I will never get to see every inch of it. According to the business book that I am currently reading, the road to being rich is simple, we just to choose to complicate it. The way to being rich is to come up with a plan and stick with it. I think the same rule may somehow be applicable to life. Having a dream and pushing yourself to achieving it keeps you going and makes life worth living... in short, having a purpose is what life is all about.

When I pray and ask for guidance from God, I always hear New Zealand. That is where I want to settle down. Just like my day to day life, there's just so many distractions that keeps me from realizing what I really want right now. I want to be rich and I will make that happen. I will be financially free and have a happy family. I will be healthy and live a healthy, productive life. I will make all of this happen not only for myself but also to glorify my Father.

Thankful in the midst of Hives Attack

I am having one of those nights again where I feel itchy all over my body and I am growing hives like potatoes from my scalp, entire face, to my bum, to my thighs to my toes. It is horrible I tell you, not knowing why I am itching all over and growing these hives and rashes. The not knowing part sucks but the internet surprisingly helped me deal with it. I had to first find out what pantal is in english in order for me to understand my condition more. I found out it was hives. Hah! From researching about my condition as I scratch my life away with pleasure, I ended up watching this video by Rick Mereki (not sure if that's his real name or if it was just a screen name).

EAT from Rick Mereki on Vimeo.

3 guys, 44 days, 11 countries, 18 flights, 38 thousand miles, an exploding volcano, 2 cameras and almost a terabyte of footage... all to turn 3 ambitious linear concepts based on movement, learning and food ....into 3 beautiful and hopefully compelling short films.....

= a trip of a lifetime.

move, eat, learn

What he shared made smile. Man, was I inspired! Being inspired is a great feeling. It made me disregard my hives altogether! I LOVE IT!!!! Am I booking a flight to Zamboanga and push through with my Mindanao to Luzon adventure because of this video? Maybe. I was moved by the video, yes. For now, being able to smile despite having my entire body serve as a world map of hives is enough for me.

Plans for my Well-being

Alright, I am 27 turning 28 in 3 months. I am not getting any younger and I don't want to worry about that so I am making a some awesome plans for myself.

1. I will find a sports that I can engage myself in for the long haul. Ideally, something inexpensive.

2. I will continue to do yoga.

3. I will watch what I eat.

4. I will keep a positive outlook in life and stay away from not so good vibes.

Sounds doable. Yep, I believe all of these can be done.

2011

Time flies.

The last blog post dates back to October 25, 2007. Uh-mazing! It made me look back to what I was once to what I am now. Oh just let me ramble on.

1. I no longer own a desktop pc. I've had 14-inch laptop which I sold a year ago and now I have a notebook. No dvd drive, no fuss. I just use the laptop to surf the net anyway. I've also stopped blogging - obviously.

2. Half of my mini-room library is now wiped. I've given away most of my books. Hard core book lovers may stone me to death but I've always believed in spreading the love and knowledge these books have given me.

3. I have traveled. That in itself is another blog-worthy entry.

4. My brother is now married.

5. The person I am with now is different with the person I used to refer to in my past blog posts.

6. All my past posts just makes me say, "wow". 4 years have come and gone. The itch to travel still needs to be scratched but the desire to have a place that I can call my own is starting to burn my very core more.

7. I am amazed by the ability of blogs to store so much information. Not just of billion people, but possibly of every single soul roaming this planet. WHOA! Who invented the internet again????

8. I have eaten SNAILS!!!! Yes, escargot. I ate in this French restaurant called Le Bistro. I had to think of happy things and had to erase all slimy images as I chew on it. Why do snails have to be slimy?

9. All in all, I'm thrilled to resurrect this blog. I can't wait to document my life back on track again.